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26 So Far..

Here I am again, face to face with the same familiar enemy—my insecurities. They’ve been with me for so long, a shadow I’ve been trying to fight off for what feels like forever. Yet, despite their relentless whispers, I’ve kept going. So, let’s take a moment to celebrate, not for the battles I’ve lost, but for the quiet victories I’ve earned. My faith has grown, even in the face of failure. Too many times I’ve stumbled, fallen, and felt the weight of giving up pressing down on me. But here I stand, unbroken. I haven’t quit, and maybe, just maybe, that’s enough for today.

Love and career—both seem dim, their paths not quite as bright as I’d hoped. Life keeps pushing me, forcing me to work hard again and again, as if testing my limits. But maybe that’s the reason I’ve grown strong enough to walk through the fiercest hurricanes. Each storm has shaped me, every gust of wind teaching me resilience. And though the skies may still be dark, I keep walking, knowing that strength isn’t just about surviving the storm—it’s about finding the courage to keep moving forward, no matter how hard the winds howl.

I refuse to walk in remorse, even when I give my all to something, only to find it leading me to a deadlock. Uncertainty and darkness have been my constant companions, lingering beside me, shaping me, and fortifying my spirit. They’ve made me strong, unshakable in the face of life’s relentless trials. I can only hope that my feet—my foundation—will always carry me forward. May they remain steady, reliable, and strong enough to traverse whatever path lies ahead, no matter how rough or uncertain the journey may be.

I’m still learning how to truly embrace sincerity and acceptance—how to let go of what was and find the courage to start anew. It’s a delicate process, like learning to breathe in a new rhythm, one that often feels unfamiliar and uncomfortable. Each step forward feels like a lesson in itself, a never-ending journey of growth and understanding. But perhaps that’s the beauty of it—learning, unlearning, and relearning, as life gently reminds me that growth isn’t a destination but a continuous, evolving path.

To accept who I truly am, to push my limits, to find emotional and financial stability, to embrace freedom, and to grow closer to God—these are the things I strive for. I’m curious to see what lies beyond, what life has in store for me after these steps. I no longer wish for life to be kinder; instead, I hope to become stronger, braver, and more resilient to face whatever comes my way.

Twenty-six years so far... and I’m eager to see what surprises life will unfold next.

In the end, life isn’t about wishing for ease or comfort—it’s about finding the strength to navigate its twists and turns. At 26, I stand at the crossroads of growth and uncertainty, embracing the lessons, the challenges, and the surprises yet to come. With faith in myself and in God, I’m ready to face whatever life unfolds, not with fear, but with courage and hope for a future I’m determined to shape.


- VIC

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