Vinka's Library of Mind

  (1) To be sincere, to be released, to be relieved, to be accepting, to be forgiving, to be forgiven — This isn't an easy-peasy phase, but at least I'm trying. Embracing myself to the fullest, leaving it all behind to start anew. I believe that the future holds kindness for a kind-hearted soul. Stepping into an era of uncertainty has prompted much reflection within me. It appears that things can be easily overturned, much like the heart. The human heart is dynamic; it changes easily. The only thing that is eternal is God, the best source of support to lean on. (2) To be sincere, to be released, to be relieved, to be accepting, to be forgiving, to be forgiven — Every human being makes mistakes; imperfection is inherent in our nature. Admitting our faults, seeking forgiveness, and striving to improve are essential aspects of our journey towards self-awareness and personal development. Imperfection is what makes us uniquely human, and it's through our mistakes that we discove

Bising mantra mengetuk di kepala Membisikan pada semilir angin beribu pinta Kelak untaian mantra itu mengudara Kiranya akan meluruh duka angkara Sebagian ku harap berlabuh pada tali jiwa Yang kini masih ditawan puaka Ku harap tabah menyelimuti dadanya Agar jika genap kelak membawa, ia paripurna Duhai waktu yang bergerumit mulur Aku titip nasib yang masih samar lebur Kiranya di kemudian kelak elok mujur Kiranya di kemudian kelak muram layur -vic

Something in your head, Intricacies weaving threads, Suspicions rise, a tangled mesh, Compelling, yet unclear, no less. Stuck inside, lost in wonder, Shall I linger, or move yonder? Something in your smile, Echoes of a past defiled. I see her shadow in your grin, A trace of betrayal, a ghost within. -vic

Hari ke-1 Malam ini aku benar-benar tidak tenang. Tubuhku lelah sekali, tapi kepalaku berisik. Untungnya kucingku juga berisik, jadi suara di kepalaku sedikitnya bisa teredam oleh suara si Butek. Jadi, setelah merayu Tuhanku sejak 3 pagi hingga dini hari, aku memutuskan untuk melihat langit. Melihat langit entah mengapa selalu menenangkan, membiarkan diriku melihat dunia dari perspektif kosmik, membuat isi kepalaku rasanya kecil sekali. Bulan ada di fase waning crescent 1% malam ini dan langit lagi cloudy. Tidak terlihat bulan atau bintang, bahkan si bintang fajar aka Venus tidak tampak. Tapi tidak apa, langit tak selalu biru atau berbintang kan? Sobat tengah malamku yang sempat menghilang seminggu ((alhamdulillah)) sudah balik. Seperti biasa, kita diskusi kehidupan yang selalu tidak adil, sampai kabar Haruki Murakami yang mau rilis buku November nanti. Bagaimanapun, itu ikut andil menghilangkan berisik di kepalaku.  Angin sama sekali tidak berhembus. Pagi yang datar. Kemudian aku meme

Temu-pisah memang sudah sepaket. Namun dalam bab sedikit panjang tentang kamu, ku pikir temu kita akan lama. Jadi ku gantung banyak rahasia, harap, asa pada tubuhmu tempo hari.   Tapi bagimu, kata-kataku menjelma beban di pundakmu. Mungkin terlalu banyak yang ku beri. Jadi selamat, kita sudah sampai pada epilog di buku tipis ini.  Dalam keniscayaan hidup kita yang sementara, terima kasih sudah sudi bersinggungan denganku. Kiranya kamu dan aku akan bersinggungan lagi nanti. Saat keluar dari cerita lusuh ini, semoga kakimu selalu kuat untuk berlari mengejar yang kamu cari. -vic

And over again, I find myself captivated by the resonance of your voice. It is my most cherished melody. Deeper than the ocean floor, yet so gentle, it grants me the courage to willingly sink into its depths. And over again, you unveil the symphony of your melodies, revealing the brilliance of your musical taste. How enchanting you are as you sway with your guitar, I am undeniably captivated. And over again, you ensnare me, drawing me into the depths of your essence with a mere utterance of hello. Your words flow like the dawn, your listening is akin to finding a silver lining in the clouds. I cherish every facet of your being, from the soft snore to the laughter, From the bravery you exude to the vulnerabilities you reveal. Time has passed, but this feeling remains steadfast, undeniably yours. And over again, a lingering fear persists. Close to you, both amazement and fear intertwine. It hurts yet heals, a paradox of emotions that leaves me breathless. You leave me in a state of bewil